The Finite And The Infinite...
Last night, as we left to go and get something to eat in one of our regular tavernas, forked lightening streaked across the sky, illuminating all the clouds in surreal golden light...
We went down the iron steps, and started to cross over to where our car was parked... Suddenly it seemed rocks, or pebbles at the least, were being thrown from the sky, landing in the trees and on the roof...
'What is it' ? I asked, as I spoke I heard fear in my voice, neither of us knew what was happening...
In the shelter of the car, big drops of rain started to fall, 'I think it must have been rain, some very heavy drops of rain' Anadi said... It hadn't seemed like rain at all, and it felt a bit like being in an 'end of the world' or 'sci fi' film....
Standing outside, under a darkening sky with something being hurled from it.
We drove the mile down the road to Barbati, and when we arrived there were melting lumps of ice in the road... Huge hail stones, the size of big round ice cubes, had rattled down on the roof of our restaurant. The owner was in the road, having come out to see who was throwing stones!
'It's a storm that has travelled over from Albania' he said... 'It's stopped here', and he pointed to the dark sky behind him and the brighter sky on the other side...
We try and make meaning to our changeable world by what we know... Rain, snow, sun rising and setting, wind, all the things we are familiar with, we are able to take in our stride... But then nature swoops in with a dramatic gesture, and we are suddenly so vulnerable...
Even feeling the fear for a few seconds of 'something going on' that could herald danger, connected me with every soul who has been subject to the terror of their whole life changing, or ending immediately in front of them... Nothing to do but surrender to the enormous, devastating forces of nature.
And even worse than that, to go through the terrible event and emerge with loved ones lost or dead...
I felt the fear, ducked and put my hands over my head.... And then got into the car and continued with my safe life...
But I had discovered in that moment where there is a lack of safety inside me, fear of change, of loss... A sudden real connection to the devastations we know about that have existed before and the terrible trauma that is existing now in Nepal....
'Be the change you want to see in the world', can seem trite words at a time of such huge devastation, and yet it is the way to change the world... Be the change, clear the fear, clear the fear of loss, access our own vulnerability, understand it, connect to it and find out who we truly are....
And then the direction we must go in will reveal itself, how we support others, what our true work is.. It will all be revealed from within us...
We are all one, and so whatever is happening anywhere in the world is to do with us...This is why every moment being present to our own hurt, our own fear, our own joy, our own passion... Allowing our energy is freedom to go where it will, allows us to connect in a way that will truly help others from our heart, rather than coming from our own fear...
And now I am sitting on the terrace at Stefanos Place... My day has been full of working with people, on FaceTime and via email - and suddenly my emails went awry and wouldn't send...
It was just after I had sent the last coaching one, fortunately, and fortunately Anadi knows more about these things than I do and is working beside me to correct the issue....
Which is proving a puzzle...
Puzzles are all very well, when you have some idea how to begin... Which Anadi does, and he has just solved it...!
I had no idea where to start - it was like 'being inside a box with the instructions on how to get out' on the outside!
Once again, when we get stuck in any way, we become aware of our human journey. We all are part of the whole, but with our own unique energetic make up, which lends us towards different passions, different creative expression and different skills sets...
I am good at helping people 'get out of boxes', and even read for themselves the instructions they were sure were 'on the outside out of reach' when they are stuck in their own life - when the puzzle seems far too hard to even take a piece and place it somewhere... And I am fully aware that there are other puzzles which I need help with...
And so we can all help one another... It comes back again and again, to connecting to who we are, because from this place we will know what we want to do, love to do and then the success, status, peace inside, money, fulfilment, recognition, fun... All emerge from this place....
And we can live our human journey out with more awareness of our infinite nature and with less fear of the finite aspect of being human...
Yesterday a beautiful infinite 8 charm, on a necklace arrived from Athena Jane, as a gift for my birthday...
It is really special and really light which means I can wear it when I run...
And always be reminded by this symbol of the relationship between the finite and the infinite...
Living with this awareness, allows us to fully connect to our life here without become so attached to it, so as to forget that we are free....
As I finish my blog, the wind is whipping around, unseen, but clattering against the glass windows of Dwight's bar, the trees are being blown around, and the clouds are taking the mountains away from view....
A storm is making its way here.....
