Practice Practice Practice...
We went to dinner last night, and I realised that I had recovered from the extremely generous GnT mixed for me last Tuesday, because after a week, I was ready to drink one again!
However I ordered with caution 'pequeno gin por favor'.
'Ahhh por infantile' he laughed...
Soon the waiter came back, flourishing clinkity ice filled huge glasses, putting them down in front of us... I affirmed, 'infantile', he laughed again and putting Anadi's in front of him, he said 'Si, y por hombre'...!
I have never been able to 'train' for drinking, because if I drink a drink with power, the resulting feeling usually puts me off another one for at least a week, during which time all resistance gained is lost...!
This of course is the same with everything, practice practice practise and we become adept at whatever we are practicing..
This can be habits we wish we hadn't adopted as well as practices that support us...
It is important we are practicing in the direction we wish to be going.
As we sat in our cafe this morning drinking cafe con leche and eating croissant before my interval session, we talked about how many things need to be done regularly in this vibration on planet earth, to attain what we wish... Including eating and drinking and sleeping!
Consistency of a practice imprints it, which is why we need to be conscious of what we are doing regularly!
The reason I have become slower at running is because I haven't been practicing running fast...
A simple formula...
It is the same with stilling our mind... Finding the spaces within the thoughts takes regular practice...
It must have taken practice to fill our minds full of chatter and noise...
It didn't just happen...
Interval training is one of the most exacting and stretching things I have ever done in my life... And as I re-engage with it in a more consistent and focused way, I am reminded as to why I love doing it...
Nothing else challenges me in the same way, for me it is a space of such step by step meditation.... To stay in the rhythm of the run, the effort... Just enough to stretch, not enough to break.
When I returned to Anadi who had enjoyed a sunny run along the seafront, I said the same to him...'I have found nothing else in life that challenges me like interval training, I can see why I haven't really done it for three years, but I can see what it is a space for me to grow in, and to go deeper into my quietness and my soul, especially if I aim really high and keep letting go of any attachment to what that is'.
Later....
I had a text from Ange, on her way to San Sebastián to do some inner work and healing with me...
'I think I am nearly here....'
And there she was...!
I had an idea in September that I would be scaling down my work, and so I stopped taking more work on...
For a little while...
But then I have stopped stopping taking work on, as it kept flowing to me!
And so I started to say 'yes' again...
The key I have found, is to keep the space for me within it, and all is well....
I took Ange to the beach and we walked along in the bright sunshine....
On the way back I could see the tide was coming in...
Would we make it to the steps...
Just!
I leapt up and Ange followed me and then we stood at the top watching the sea swoosh in over where we had just walked,, and up the sea wall....
We carried on to the top and continued with our walk along the prom...
Two friends in San Sebastián in the sun, in Spain....