A Powerful And Positive Messenger
Today I ran through the woods, on a magical mystery tour... I ran early again, and there was was no one else about... I ran out of the hotel entrance, turned left through the gate, onto the grassy footpaths...
An opening in the hedgerow led me into the woods, and I found myself following paths I had never seen before, that wound through the trees. Suddenly just in front of me, a beautiful golden deer leapt out, and galloped right across my path....
This is the wisdom I received from looking up the deer totem....
'You are highly sensitive and have a strong intuition. By affinity with this animal, you have the power to deal with challenges with grace. You master the art of being both determined and gentle in your approach. The deer totem wisdom imparts those with a special connection with this animal with the ability to be vigilant, move quickly, and trust their instincts to get out the trickiest situations.
A powerful and positive messenger for my day...!
Later....
I am sitting in a corner of the bar, and around me there are the early stages of a wedding beginning, people are arriving in beautiful summer dresses, gorgeous high heeled shoes, beautiful brown smooth legs... Smart blue suits, crisp white shirts, an air of anticipation ....
The staff enthusiastic, engaging, moving to the needs of the guests ....
Three little bridesmaids have just skipped along the corridor behind me....
I am surrounded by another world, worlds in worlds... A few people sitting lunching, me having a coffee, and around us the wedding party are gathering momentum for a day ahead of celebration...
I have just seen Clive who I have known since 1989, when we were both at the 'start up' of Buxted Park, stride along the corridor... 'Alright Julia?' He said as he passed, as if I were always here, like I was... For many years....
I have dropped back into the scene I once inhabited, and one of the characters still here, takes up the dialogue where we left off....
Sitting in a hotel reception is like sitting in a theatre... As I wait for my clients, I see snapshots of different scenes, different lives; people acting out different aspects of themselves... A bride, a business man, florist, waiter, father, mother of the bride... Wife, daughter... Chef, writer, runner...
We all have different archetypes within us, different aspects that all need expression... It can be useful to explore and notice what we believe these to be... As well as taking note as to whether they all have an arena, in which to be expressed...
Some will be obvious... Others not so; it is important to give ourselves time to reflect on aspects of ourselves that we yearn to express....
It can help to sit with a pen and paper and no internal editing, and write what our yearnings are, where we are drawn, what archetypes do we identify with....
I quite clearly have the archetype of athlete, of healer, teacher, writer.... All of which I live out.... I also have a strong mother archetype, but without children, that nurturing energy has mainly expressed in my work with people; I have the hermit, which doesn't get much arena at the moment, the wife, the lover....
Some aspects of ourselves can get lost and hidden, or disowned, in the rough and tumble of growing up....
It is for us to reclaim all aspects of ourselves, and enjoy living all of ourselves out in the world....
There is only one of us and if we are not fully present in ourselves, the world misses out...
We might see an aspect we have lost, being lived out by someone else, and it is in the feeling of appreciation or yearning towards it, that we will see where we want to express...
The singer is a very lost archetype within me!
Later still....
I have finished my three days working with my clients and I am about to drive back to London to be with Anadi again....
I love being in Sussex, my body responds to this area...
It remembers...
Maybe from lifetimes.
