The Best Course Is To Remain Silent
Further reflection on training for my illusionary 20 mile race brings me to wonder what is next...
Where am I going? Who am I?
Who is the I that wants to know where they are going anyway?
I have been speaking with a client for a couple of years now, who in the end stopped... She completely stopping 'doing' anything or 'trying to go' anywhere...
She became acutely aware that all of her 'doings' and 'goings' were based on her constructed self, and so she has stopped...
She is being, and gradually doings are occurring, rather wonderful doings....
She calls me her 'Id consultant' as she sees her process as one that is taking her back to the beginning, to the essence of herself, to the Id...
This is what is I found when googling about our Id state...
'The id is the primitive and instinctive component of personality. It consists of all the inherited (i.e. biological) components of personality, including the sex (life) instinct – Eros (which contains the libido), and the aggressive (death) instinct - Thanatos.
The id is the impulsive (and unconscious) part of our psyche which responds directly and immediately to the instincts. The personality of the newborn child is all id and only later does it develop an ego and super-ego.'
By returning to the Id state - or accessing this state as best someone who has lived a life where the ego and superego have been shaped by family, society, culture and our response to all these influences - it becomes more possible to create a life that is more real and in tune with our original energy...
Anadi and I have been hanging out in a cafe in San Pedro, drinking the mandatory cafe con leche and catching up on our computers with all that needs catching up with...
A little boy called Dante is here with his parents... He is about three or four years old. He is intrigued by Anadi and I and came over to make friends, looking directly at us in the way children do... Clear, open, himself without too much conditioning...
Parenting ourselves is the way to wholeness again, once we understand that there is still parenting to be done... Directing our Id, understanding its drives and desires... Seeing the way ahead, the impulses that come from the core of our being... Returning to stillness and really learning to listen and with wisdom take the step in the direction our true self desires to go...
This requires willingness to let go of who we have become to discover who we truly are, and open to the direction of our soul...
This way the ego is purely the driver, the vehicle in which we travel this earthly journey... And we are free...
And we find there is nothing to do.
We are human beings...
We are not human doings... The movement, the creative impulse can then arise from silence...
And in the words of
Ramana Marharshi
“Whatever is destined not to happen will not happen, try as you may. Whatever is destined to happen will happen, do what you may to prevent it. This is certain. The best course, therefore, is to remain silent.”
