Behold The Birds Of The Sky...
The sea was almost not cold enough to cool us down...
We crossed the road to breakfast, and Denise commented that she thinks yesterday was the hottest day of the whole summer...
Today we ran a thirteen mile loop. We didn't know it was a loop until we'd run it, but we suspected the road we chose would take us in a circle...
Fortunately it did!
The sweat poured off us! Clothes soaking, even shoes and socks... Drenched in sweat.
And then diving into this glorious sea, that felt quite warm.... We swam and swam....
Delighting in the magic of the wonderful Ionian Lakelike sea for us to immerse ourselves in, to cleanse us, recover us, to refresh us from the heat.....
And now I have nothing to do...
Anadi has gone now to work; he has to live stream a rugby tournament at Oxford university....
It's not yet 2pm and the day is stretching ahead....
This is the first day that I have had like this for a long time... In truth I cannot remember when I last had a day with nothing to do....
Creating the life of freedom and finding a different way to live, has paradoxically asked that we work very hard....
It has asked that we trust and stay in the flow and with the flow....
And the flow has been quite busy!
I have historically been quite a 'nothing to do' person...
Always creating large chunks of that in my life... I was often spotted in coffee shops in Eastbourne... 'Doing nothing'....
This orientation hasn't been one that would necessarily be recognised as my energy is lively, my speech used to be very fast, I beleive its slower now! My processing fast...
And I run...
But I run on the spot metaphorically. Running has always been a philosophical practice for me at the deepest level...
I like to run as one of my ways of doing nothing... Running in a circle has always felt a nothing sort of a thing to do, a sort of moving lie down, a moving catch up chat, a moving meditation...
And In the past, before I owned a mobile phone or a computer, at any opportunity I would unplug my phone at home, and retreat into 'doing nothing world'....
And when I did first own a mobile phone I was one of those people who never turned it on!
I remember my friend Debs leaving me voicemails saying 'turn your phone on Ju'!
A couple of years of non stop ness has shown me that I am able to flow with the go, and within this most recent journey, there has been another layer of letting go...
Some of my 'turning off the phone', shutting the front door type behaviour came from an inner tension of not feeling I would be able to stay relaxed if too much were asked of me...
But things appear to be different now...
I am able to respond to what is in front of me and stay at ease, and trust that this is something to do with my inner compass and that it knows best...!
Anadi and I explore a lot the idea that if we simply clear anything that is stuck, stagnant, and outdated 'stuff' from our past hurts and adaptations, and instead truly embrace the now - truly know that this moment really is all there is....
Then everything will be okay.
I come back to one of my favourite verses from the Matthew's gospel in the bible...
Chapter 6 verse:26
Behold the birds of the sky, that they neither sow nor reap, neither do they gather into barns, and your Father who is in Heaven sustains them....
