'Love One Another But Make Not A Bond Of Love...'
I am sitting in a blue cafe...
The door is blue and so are the tables and chairs...
Bright blueness, with a blue awning; with the blue sky and the blue sea outside...
Anadi had a 'platform crisis' this morning, and thinking it might be trouble with the internet in our apartment, we went up the road to the cafe - the one with the nice cakes...!
'Thank you for coming on "my mission" with me beautiful' Anadi said...
No ulterior motive at all from me of course... Although it may have been noticed that I am not one to turn down cake...
Both of us were thwarted, the Internet was broken and so we stopped for a very swift visit - no time for cake - downing our cafe con leche en vaso, we made our way further up the road to the next hostelry... where we couldn't get on line either...
But now we have landed in the bright blue cafe with Internet and food...
All is well...
It is always curious to notice the tension that arises when plans don't go to plan... There really is no need for it, but if tenseness comes, then it has come, and must be acknowledged so that it can clear......
Generally my tension has arisen from a feeling of 'letting people down' and 'being somehow wrong'...
When we ran on our dusty tracks this morning, I was telling Anadi about a vivid dream I had last night...
In the dream he and I had decided to live in separate houses; but, I was very worried about telling my father this plan...
The feeling in my dream was tangible - my father passed away 21 years ago - but the tension was very reminiscent of when he was alive, and I had something I needed to tell him, that I felt he wouldn't approve of...!
In the dream I was aware that it was important to me, that I assured him that we would still be married, even though living in separate abodes...!
'Well two things spring to mind' Anadi responded to my request that he be my 'dream analyser'... 'Firstly that you've still got some clearing to do on that 'wrong button', even seeking approval by saying we would still be married demonstrates this...'
'Yes yes' I agreed... 'Isn't it fascinating how deep these issues dig in; however it seems it's what I've come here (planet earth) to work through...!'
'And...' Anadi continued, 'it also affirms that although you and I are loving this journey together, side by side, that we are of course actually travelling our paths alone... That our paths are our own, and that it is only because our energies resonate, that we are together in this human way...'
I agreed with him...
Our conversation reminded me of Kahil Gibram, and some of the words he wrote about marriage...
'Love one another, but make not a bond of love:
Let it rather be a moving sea between the shores of your souls.
Give your hearts, but not into each other's keeping.
For only the hand of Life can contain your hearts'...
The dream then progressed somewhat... Indicating the 'wrong thing' appears to be healing well...!
I was in a room full of people - people going back over time - those I have worked with and connected with over the years; Anadi was there too, sitting across from me...
Suddenly people started to clap and cheer me, the sound became louder and louder and louder... I stood up to embrace everyone and the energy of celebration... As I stood, a group of small children raced up and jumped on me and hugged me and hugged me and the room was full of celebration of me!
'Healing is happening', Anadi affirmed...
'Yes' I said ' it's what we all need to open to isn't it, a celebration of us... To receive cheering and love and applause for being ourselves!