Flying To Casablanca
I have gin in my bag, Anadi likes gin, so I got a little travelling bottle to take back to him...
And I am flying to Casablanca... 'Of all the gin joints in all the towns in all the world, she walks into mine...'
Passing through, a flying visit...
And then I am back to sunny Marrakech, where Anadi says a chicken tagine is being prepared for my 'homecoming' ...
More than ever I feel the sense of freedom of getting on a plane, and in a few hours landing in another land; different weather, different food, different language....
And I am married to a man where I feel no sense of expectation, restriction, pull or obligation.... This demonstrates to me the shifts within me, my soul free to go wherever it is led...
It has not always been thus, which is why I notice the change...
The people around us, the relationships we have, reflect our inner state...
I am delighted to be seeing him soon, but I never feel we are parted, how can we be... Separation is an illusion...
And of course, we now live in a world of instant 'real time' connection, whenever we want, so there is no break in the interaction... No air letters taking weeks to arrive...!
And yet of course as we tread this earthly path, it is rare to truly experience that there is no separation... Often a concept rather than a lived truth.
But even acknowledging that any yearning or missing we have for another, is to do with something unanswered in ourselves.. Understanding that it is about some part of us that they are holding, can free us to get closer to this same other, than if we look for them to fill in the gaps...
And what better way to discover this than to relate deeply... To go ahead and dive into love, to be lifted up by opening to the possibility of wholeness and total love...
Becoming love rather than being in love...
I celebrate Anadi and his beautiful soul, he is more committed to truth than anything, and within this I have found more freedom in relating than ever before...
I always dreamed of freedom, to wander where I wanted, but also to experience deep intimacy and absolute love... With Anadi this experience is growing and deepening as the years pass by.
For the past week, I have been staying on a retreat in beautiful hills above Marbella... I have been with Ange and her boyfriend Nick (who came for a short stay at the beginning) and we continued the conversation we were engaged in, in San Sebastián...
A never ending dialogue that has taken place over many years...
We were surrounded by people on de-tox programmes. They were drinking juices, practising yoga and sitting quietly, while we enjoyed the delicious healthy food; fresh and wholesome, which also included carrot cake and chocolate mousse... We refrained from enjoying these delights in front of the fasting folk...!
Ange joined in some of the yoga, and received a few treatments, while I worked with clients and ran and carried out my 'Shore method' exercises...
It was on our third night that I dreamed up a special added extra to our stay....
For those last evenings, we ended our day by sitting in the steam bath and stretching in the heat, until we were ready to cool down...
Then outside we went... To the absolutely freezing cold swimming pool - in chilly outside temperature as we were quite high up in the hills - and leaping in!
We did three rounds of this and were described as
'Crazy women' by one lady... Brave by another...
The director of the centre stood on a balcony one night, and cheered us, as we giggled and gasped and squawked our way into the icy water...
We had quite become the talk of the town...!
Later...
I landed in Marrakech, and as I walked out of the airport to a warm dusty evening; the sun setting in a glorious orange finale to the day, I felt that I had come home...
The taxi driver drove me through the busy streets, and there was madness trying to get through the too narrow gates to the medina... No one giving way, and the added excitement of motorcycles and mopeds streaming through, weaving around the cars...
We pulled into the square, and Anadi was standing waiting...
'There is your husband' my driver smiled... There he was.... :)