They Have Proved To Be Prophetic Words
Our little Stables home looked quite chaotic half an hour ago, all that I own was in a pile in the middle of the living room floor; it is now in a suitcase and everything looks as it did when we first landed here two and a half weeks ago...
Anadi has gone out to meet up with two of his London friends; I was very tempted to join him, but even though we know that time is totally a man made concept and doesn't exist at all..! I felt like I would run out of this made up thing if I went along too!
I have been all day in London again; Athena Jane and I met once again in the Grosvenor Hotel; which was looking very Christmassy and celebratory; we settled into two splendid majestic chairs which encompassed us all day long while we explored future possibilities within the now of what is occurring...
We only have this moment and so it is exploring in the moment that reveals the future.
Athena Jane is experiencing huge changes in the outer realms of her life and so together we explored what is occurring within her being, there is no other way...
Strategies and structures emerge from a willingness to go within and clear the pain, shift the old and embrace the new, everything is moving always...
Even if we stop, change is occurring, it cannot be any other way, and so the courage to explore and to be true to ourselves in every moment allows for richness and deepening in every relationship.
There is a quote that says 'if you want a long term relationship follow the simple rule; never lie'.
This can be applied to every single relationship - but the essential and most important relationship to be truthful in, is the one with ourselves..
From this place there is no option but to be truthful with others.
It does require a daily inquiry into 'who am I'?
For it is from here where our truth emerges from...
And we let go of, abandon all the scripts and patterns and ways of living my default that can hold us in a cycle like Groundhog Day...
This doesn't mean we might not have routines and regular ways of living that we enjoy, but it is learning to release from inner tension and ways of thinking that trap us, and instead live from the place of our deepest inner truth...
I met a lady in the loo at the Grosvenor; she looked vibrant and was beautifully dressed; we connected because she commented on the amount of stairs to reach the 'washrooms'.
'And they're very shiny ' I said
'And I have had a drink'! She replied...
She then made a comment about her age, so I said "how old are you'?...
'I'm 78', she replied...
'You look fabulous' I said 'You are an inspiration...'
She then told me that she believed in moderation in everything - and a little bit of exercise ...
She said this to me... :)
She then looked at me and said, 'But actually I think that is because I was afraid to do it any other way...'
Chance encounters... Where was this connection a reflection for me... I could not be described as being moderate in exercise and I leap when afraid, if it feels to be the way I must go...
I told Jane about the conversation when I returned (rather breathless from running up the shiny steps!) and she asked 'but do you feel afraid Ju'?
'Oh yes', I said 'this process of leaping with Anadi has accessed lots of fear at times; I've let go of so much that was familiar to me, but I have kept leaping, because my deeper knowing has known I must...'
I have followed my inner voice...
There is a difference between hearing our voice of fear and reactions coming from the pain of wounds from the past; and it is different from our mind speaking out of fear...
Our inner voice is quiet and calm and is the watcher that has always been there and has witnessed it all going on. It is the I that is still, and calm and is watching and guiding us, if we choose to listen and follow...
Before I left to meet Jane this morning, I went for my last run around Grovelands Park...
Anadi and I have decided not to run tomorrow, in part so as not to have to pack sweaty kit for a long long journey! It also fits with my process of 'building up not breaking down'; one day on one day off, to keep freeing my ankle....!
A few weeks ago I had treatment with Greg.I still wasn't running, and he said to me 'You will be running by the time you go to Thailand Julia, and in a position to enjoy running in the sun, free from pain again'
They have proved to be prophetic words...
This morning I felt good running along...
I did a mini session...
I wanted to explore stretching out a bit as my ankle has not been though much of a range of movement yet, so I jogged the half mile to the park and then set my Garmin to beep every point one of a mile, so that I could run fast and slow.... For just two miles.
It was fun!
Running in the freezing cold damp December day.
Tomorrow I will be running in a warm sunny December day... And the time is a different time to here...
This made up thing....
