Julia's Gone Running - Day Thirty

When Love Beckons To you, Follow...

Anadi and I are having 'elevenses'. On the table in front of me is my first coffee of the day, a delicious iced Cappuccino; Anadi has the hot version...

It has somehow got to 4pm in the afternoon..!

In half an hour we are due to gather together for Flo and Yiing's marriage ceremony which takes place at five...

Today has been a body day...

No running has been done at all, because I am liking giving my achilles another rest and enjoying using the gym for X training; so today Anadi came with me and ran while I rowed 8 kilometres.

If I am to X train, the Concept 2 is my favourite... and swimming in the sea!

Which we did later on after the gym... No red flag flying today, so we swam and swam in the blissful warm and salty Andaman Sea...

I had recounted to my friend Kader all about my Thai massage yesterday; I described to him how the masseuse had climbed all over me...

He suggested that I get a weighty one next time, for even greater effect...

No sooner said than done!

This morning I went back for more, and experienced an incredible opening, releasing massage. It asked that I up my game, that I step up and join in!

It was a real work out and I needed to fully become part of the process.

The messeuse was bigger than my masseuese yesterday, and so my body needed to Surrender to her body and her weight, and let go as she kneeled on me, pushed me and pummelled and stretched me out...

At times I wasn't sure I could take it, but I trusted her and her intuition about my body and what was needed... Her hands felt like hands that knew...

At one point she asked to me... 'You okay?'... I assured her I was and that her treatment was fabulous, that I was enjoying it a lot. later on she asked 'You play sport madam?'

'Yes, I run...'

'Ah running' she smiled and did a running action with her arms.. 'You have a very strong body'...

She clambered around me on the massage couch; she pulled me sideways, she knelt on my bottom and then pulled me up off the couch by my arms, arching my back... And my body opened and opened and let go and relaxed...

I walked back, still in a meditative space, and I was crossing the grass to our room, when a thought came in 'I think you truly are creating the life you have always wanted... Time to run and open your body and to simply be in the dance of the run...'

I remember being on a running camp many many years ago - My fastest time to run a marathon was 2.36... I always dreamed of being a full time athlete...

All I had ever wanted, all my life, was to run...

But I didn't make the leap then...

And George Gandy, a top running coach, said to me while I was on that camp...

You only have to run ten minutes quicker Julia - 2.26 instead of 2.36 - and you could live like this...

But then I was attached to an illusion, an outcome...

I knew that when I ran free, when I got out of the way of myself; when I stayed in the step and let the next step take care of itself, that all worked out.

But I could not always trust myself to stay with this...

And so it has taken until now, to trust myself enough to create the life I have always dreamed... Which is running, but running that isn't reliant on an outcome...

It simply gives me the space to do the thing I love, and still love.

My creative expression

Me in motion...

Later...

We have just returned from the most beautiful time, fabulous time at the marriage of Flo and Yiing...

It was a perfect day.

A day full of love and love and more love...

'When love beckons to you, follow him...'

It was honour to be witness to relationship and love deepening into more love...

'Love has no other desire but to fulfil itself...'

Towards the end of of the occasion we were watching fire dancers, dancing with fire. it was such an incredible spectacle, the dancers wore masks and we will never know them or see them again; but in that moment they were all that mattered... Their energy flowing through their bodies, the dance and the flame all one...

United.

No attachment to being anybody or going anywhere.

No attachment to an outcome, simply being and expressing themselves through their art.

The day was one of inspiration.

Clear true love of the self and so it follows others... allows for creative expression in its truest form, whether that be fire dancing, or anything that asks to be expressed..

In any moment.

Being ourselves allows for our creativity to flow...

Our creativity flowing is us in motion...

And today, by the sea, the sun setting, the marriage of Yiing and Flo expressed love and creativity, creativity and love in every second; the dresses, the words during the ceremony, the tables, the decorations, the amazing food, the cocktails (!!) the music, the dancing, the conversations... The relationship to everything.