Life Force; Primal Energy
We have just returned from our 'Sunday morning long run'...
I was in the shower and had a thought - so I called out... 'Anaaadi,,,' 'Yes beautiful...'
'Please would you look up the animal totem for lizard and snake on my iPad, and then cut and paste into a new document in pages for me..!
'Maybe...' He laughed...
'It's just that will just about be my blog written...' I laughed too...
'Do I get credit for this...' he called... 'research by Anadi'!
'Maybe...' I replied...
We have had a very chilled day indeed, we decided to take a day off work except for my blog, which does not count as work; it is a catch up with my sister Rosy my niece Jess... and all of you, my friends!
In fact none of my life really feels like work, or ever has...
I was exploring this with Anadi yesterday and noticing that my work with people and any writing I have done has always just flowed...
My area of challenge has been my running...
In the early days I ran free as a bird on the wing.
It seemed I was born to run.
I flew across the grass as a little girl, barefoot and free...
Then I started to run races and I won often, and if I didn't win I was 'up there' stretching and striving and loving the chase...
And then I lost my way...
I became attached to the outcome and the running road became a stressful one, one where I measured my own worth by how fast I could run...
On one level I always knew that if I 'did it wrong spiritually' as I understood my path then, I would be stopped...
And my running path has seen a lot of stop, and start... dark and light, yin yang...
I have experienced a lot of free, wonderful running, fabulous races, knowing the feeling of flow and being in the zone...
And throughout the years... many days, weeks, months of illness and injury too....
My running has been my nemesis and my salvation...
It is the place where any attachment to outcome has been spotted!
Where any hope of permanence and immortality has been spotted!
It shows up when I have allowed my mind and ego to take over...
And being here, three months since I was stopped running because of my Achilles' tendon, and being on Phi Phi island, where the island has leant itself to revealing unresolved areas within me... Yesterday when we were chatting, I said to Anadi, 'it is simple really ... Everything flows in my life when I just let it flow and have no agenda about where it is going or what it means...
All I have to do is do the same with my running...'
Now I have come to this place many times before...!
And then my ego says...
'brilliant, now you have got that sorted out... We can just get going, and get fast and successful again...!'
But it's not that...!
It's about seeing what happens if I truly allow the flow...
We are now sitting in Sunflower Bar in the pouring rain!
One couple is braving it out and are still sitting outside in the torrential downpour…
Today we set off for our morning explore... and as we went down the path, Anadi said 'look' and there was a beautiful brown lizard right behind us; last night a little lizard had run up Anadi's leg as we had sat here, in this bar... While we were eating our evening meal..
'We must look that up when we get back' I said...
We carried on through the town, turned left to climb the many steps to the top of the island - we forgot to count them! When we reached the top, we sat for awhile looking over this beautiful tiny little island; we then saw that we could find a path on the other side; we carried in and it opened out to sandy paths.. with nobody about!
I loved it so much
I felt well, my Achilles' tendon was more than happy to run and it was so beautiful there...
'Thank goodness' I said to Anadi.. .'we have found our place, empty except for the occasional islander phut phut ing by on their mopeds...
I felt happy and free, out in the jungle alone with Anadi, running...
'Wow, look at this', Anadi said suddenly...
There was a beautiful snake curled up on the oath, we think it was a golden tree snake; it's throat was very fat - it was eating something! Something quite big...
It says on the Internet that it eats just about anything that moves...!
As the past last 20 hours have been full of lizards and snakes....
Here is Anadi's research while I was in the shower...!
This is what is said about lizard totem
If Lizard has come passing through your life:
It’s time to take do an internal audit.
Are you being ruled by your ego or are you coming from your heart?
Be aware – simply because the ego is the master of deception and you will often have to peel back many layers to get at the truth – and to discover what your heart is really telling you.
Take the time to really focus on your personal dreams...
And the snake...
The snake animal meaning is powerfully connected to life force and primal energy.
In many cultures, it is revered as a powerful totem representing the source of life.
When the snake spirit animal appears in your life, it likely means that healing opportunities, change, important transitions, and increased energy are manifesting.
Snake spirit animals represent healing, transformation, life changes.